:Knowing Who God Is
Over the past several months since my divorce I have struggled at times with God and my desire to seek Him out. In my heart I know it is the thing to do but instead of placing the blame on myself for not being the Christian husband that I ought or knowing what to do for my wife to make her stay I blame God for "making" me marry the wrong woman. I often amaze myself at my stinking thinking but I have moments where I get angry at God and then pull away. I still try to show Madalyn that there is a God in hopes that she will understand and know God. I find myself selling her short when it comes to knowing what she understands and does not. To me she is 2 and still a baby. I think that I am actually the baby... Here is why... While I was having one of my above episodes and feeling like I need to take care of myself and not God I have been in a rush, no time for God because I have so much to do. If I am to make something more of my life then I need to take control and get to ...