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The Loneliness Syndrome

It has been several months now since the divorce and even more when the separation is taken into account so why is it that things don’t seem to be getting any easier? The worst is when Madalyn goes to her mom’s. I will have her all week and after 5 minutes of her being gone I am miserable. I hate not having her here, she brings the home alive and I plan my day, night, and week around her and her needs. When she is not here I feel lost with no direction. Severe ADD, focusing on any one task takes too much work. The best I can do is put a movie in and eat a pint of ice cream. I just thought this would get easier over time and I would be able to spend the time I don’t have her working on my home business but by the time the fog or depression lifts I have wasted most of the week. Any one have any suggestions? Maybe I need therapy :-)

What do Children Think

New Question! My ex is what you would call a social butterfly and she has children from previous marriages, there seems to never be a dull moment or a moment when she is not on the go. When Madalyn is with her of course she gets to experience the same. She also gets to see her half sisters and she sure does love them. Now when Madalyn is with daddy, me, I am more of a homebody. We go for walks, bike rides, to the park, or watch "Clifford the Big Red Dog." Typically it is just her and I. Does she get bored with her daddy? Do I need to have more stimuli for her? I don't know... The reason I am thinking about this is that she seems to always be excited to see her mom. Sometimes I feel sad because it does not seem like she wants to be with me. I don't even know if these two things are related but I thought that maybe she wants her mom more is becuase of the excitement associated with being with her. I am just boring old daddy. I don't know, maybe I am totall...

:Knowing Who God Is

Over the past several months since my divorce I have struggled at times with God and my desire to seek Him out. In my heart I know it is the thing to do but instead of placing the blame on myself for not being the Christian husband that I ought or knowing what to do for my wife to make her stay I blame God for "making" me marry the wrong woman. I often amaze myself at my stinking thinking but I have moments where I get angry at God and then pull away. I still try to show Madalyn that there is a God in hopes that she will understand and know God. I find myself selling her short when it comes to knowing what she understands and does not. To me she is 2 and still a baby. I think that I am actually the baby... Here is why... While I was having one of my above episodes and feeling like I need to take care of myself and not God I have been in a rush, no time for God because I have so much to do. If I am to make something more of my life then I need to take control and get to ...

PT Update

FYI: two minutes after posting my last post, after days of not being successful, Madalyn says I got to go potty. Of course I have heard it before and we take her diaper off and it is wet. To my surpise she jumps up on the pot and tinkles again. She is happy and we are excited. YAY! Madalyn. Maybe we are back on track!

Potty Training Help

It seems like I have been trying to get Madalyn potty trained for a couple months now. She get excited about it then loses interest after a couple of days, even with the rewards. Between daycare, mom's house and here it is hard for me to make any progress. We are all trying to be on the same page but the ex and I don't talk much and daycare is pretty busy to keep on top of it. My latest idea has to do with getting a gum ball machine and filling it with some sugar free candy and each time she uses the potty she gets a penny to put in and get a reward. I hope this works because I am not sure what to try next and as I am told girls are supposed to be easy to potty train. Anyhow, suggestions and prayer would be appreciated. Thanks

Bible Verse and Quote

Men are not influenced by things, but by their thoughts about things. Philippians 4:8 Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things. This verse always does me good!

Friday Night Blues

Here it is another Friday night and I am finding myself lonely, alone and depressed. I feel like I am the only one that has no plans or no one to spend quality time with. At least when I have Madalyn I have companionship and something to do. I guess it is not all bad, I do enjoy the time to myself but for so long I have prayed for my best friend. I continue to pray that God will make the way for her soon. On a different note: I have been praying for ideas and places to meet people that don’t have to do with bars and clubs and as I checked my mail this evening I found a neat publication that listed classes for next month at local high schools. All sorts of classes, it was a total answer to prayer. The opportunity to be around others and learn something, WOW! I know God worked that out for me and I am thankful. I can’t wait to check some out next month. Tomorrow will be better, I can see Madalyn running to daddy for a big hug, I can’t wait. I can’t wait for some adult companio...