A surprising thing happened to me this past week, actually 2 things. The first is I had a date and found that I don't feel like I am ready to date. Why you might ask? since it is what I have been longing for. Well because I have grown very angry towards my ex recently. To the point where I said things to my little girl simply because she was there and said she wanted to go back to her mommy after I picked her up. Normally I can handle it but my ex has found a new boyfriend and I am so sick and tired of Madalyn seeing this. Yet I am completely helpless... so what do I do? I make my little girl cry because I am a raving lunatic. I guess between her mom and dad we should screw her up plenty. Am I jealous that my ex finds it easy to attract one guy after another? Maybe I am, I don't know. Personally I would be happy if I could feel comfortable with the current situation and get to know the woman God has for me. You would think being the father of the child I would feel M...
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